AmazeBalls!

     As I sit here and think about the past month, I think about how crazy life really is.  It seems it has been a whirlwind of activity, but a good amount of nothingness.  Seems like a great balance.  Things in life happen and I feel like for a reason.  A good friend of mine was killed 2 years ago on October 15, she was taken way to early from many peoples' lives.  It's fitting that on this day I take a pregnancy test and how much I felt like she was with me when those two lines showed up.  Even though I was too dumb to realize it at first; she was there.  This particular morning I trip while running, but felt like I was pushed to hit the grass instead the concrete sidewalk.  As I lay there with my face implanted in the grass, I can't help but cry and say thank you for everything.  So that afternoon I take a test and its positive, which I don't realize because the line was so faint.  The next morning Kara asked if I did the test right.  So here I go reading the directions; you should do that before.  It says even if the line is faint you are pregnant!  UHOH!  She convinced me to take another and same result!!  It was so special to me to find out such awesome (amazeballs :)) news on that date.  I know she was up there saying "way to go JiLinda!!"
     So the rest of the story; I then go to the doctor and take their test and it comes back negative.  My trusty friend Kara says Jill those things aren't as good and don't test a strong enough level of hormones; wait for the blood test results.  So, that was a Friday and, of course, I would have to wait till Monday.  The lady calls on Monday and confirms.  Geoff by this time is working away at Camp Pendleton, so he has to settle for a text!  I actually wouldn't get to see him again for a week.  He was supposed to get back later than me, as I was going to be going to Texas, but just in case, when I left I left him a Welcome Home Daddy on our dry erase board!  He ended up getting home early!! :)
     It was pretty cool that I ended up going home and got to tell Granny Janny and Grandpa in person!!
     So I'm pregnant; just by a little, but pregnant!  I have been feeling good.  I do get a little tired at times, but that could just be the fact that I have a hard time sleeping and I get up at 4am to run.  I feel like I forget everything, but seems like I've always been like that, but way worse!  I cry.  I've never been a crier but wow, the past few weeks I've been crying.  Something so small just makes me bust out!  All in all I feel great.  Excited yes, but scared!  When I walk home from school with kids talking about sex, drugs, drinking, and cussing every other word; it makes me wonder why I would want to bring a kid into that kind of environment.  Yes, I know I wasn't perfect in life; we all make mistakes, but I just hope our child can make the right choices.  All I can hope is that me and Geoff can instill enough values and morals into our child as we can.  That with God's help we can make sure our son or daughter will live their life the right way and follow in Christ.  I know this will be a challenge with all the obstacles in the world, but I think we are ready for the challenge.
     So, I guess I will have a new subject for my blogs!  Should be interesting! :)
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These little people in the San Diego clothes!  You are going to be Cousins!!! :)